I was in Heaven, now not so much

So today I did something i've never done before, I got a MASSAGE!!

It was the most relaxing experience of my life! I was in heaven!

It was a little painful to begin with, but then I was loosened up and it felt so good. 

She told me I was super tense and that I had a lot of knots in my neck, hips, shoulders, and feet.

Because of being a nurse I kind of expected most of this, bc of being on my feet all day and all that jazz. She recommended a chiropractor also, anybody ever been to one? 

The atmosphere was amazing as well. She had candles burning, nature music playing, and the bed sheets were heated. The sheets were great bc it was kinda cold in the room. 

Needless to say it was a very relaxing hour and I will definitely be getting another one soon!

I also signed my mom up for one next week! She is excited too!

Now onto the not so much part, I am now in pain from how much kneading she did on my neck and shoulders. I can hardly move my neck or shoulders, bc they are sore from all the knots she was trying to alleviate. 

But on a good note I think i'll be able to sleep tonight. Oh yeah thats right y'all don't know, but I have been battling some intense INSOMNIA! I haven't been sleeping good and i'm tired all the time!!! It's terrible and I feel worthless most of the time. But my massage therapist told me to take a bath in lavender epsom salts before bedtime, so i'm gonna try that later this week. Its suppose to release the toxins in your body and lull you into sleep, we shall see ;) I will let y'all know how it works!

Have a great Friday!

ps. I am praying for all of y'all that were in the path of Sandy and I hope your all well!

Prayers

Okay bloggy friends I need prayers please, I cannot divulge the details as to what the need is about, but just know i'm in desperate need of them. 

I am having a lot of family issues and and they are weighing heavily on my heart. 

I am the type of person who wants to fix everything and make everything better for my family, that is why I became a nurse, bc I like helping people.

I am a control freak as well and when I cannot make things better or make them go the way I need or want them to go, I kinda freak out. I love my family and want the best for them, but right now there are a few of them I just want drop kick right now. 

I have been praying, praying, praying for things to work out and I don't see an end in sight at this time, but I know MY God is greater and MY God is stronger than all my problems! I am standing on the word and His word says He will not leave me nor forsake me, He works all things to my good, and He is here if I only ask Him. 

Thank you for the prayers and love! I love each and everyone of you, even though I haven't met y'all!

ps. here are some songs that help me through and I hope they will help you!

Newsboys - God's Not Dead

Kutless - What Faith Can Do

Sidewalk Prophets - The Words I would Say

Casting Crowns - Courageous

I'm Back

So I know I have been gone for most of the summer, but I am back now! I have been super busy all summer taking care of my little cousins, working, doing school work, and just having fun!

I am going to try my best to be back full time from now on, but it may not happen all the time. I have tried to start back before now, but have been unable to bring myself to put forth the effort this blog requires. But I feel I am back to a place where I can be here more often. We have been dealing with a lot as a family this summer and my mind has been anywhere but set in reality.  I have been escaping into the world of my books and movies. 

Am I the only person who re-reads their favorite books even if they have just read them? 

Anyways, I just wanted everyone to know that I'M BACK!!

Love y'all!!!!

Sickie

So I know i haven't been around since like Tuesday, but its with good reason. I worked two 12 hour shifts on wednesday and thursday, both while very very sick. I had my co-worker give me a shot in the butt on wednesday bc I felt terrible. It helped a little bit and then I came home and went straight to bed. Thursday  was even worse so my doctor called me in some antibiotics and my sweet sweet mommy brought them and some fabulous Chick-Fil-a to me at work. 

I'm pretty sure I scared all my patients into getting through triage quickly and getting out of the office!

I was a hot mess, literally and figuratively!

So this weekend I am laying low, sleeping, reading, and watching movies. 

The only reason I will be getting out of the house this weekend is to go find my sister from another mister her spring sweets swap goodies! I hope kelly likes what I get her! 

I will fill everyone in what I get her and what I get! I am super excited!

Until then, have a great night!

Confessions

Ok so first off I wanna say that I am a little perturbed, I lost a follower today. I mean I know I haven't been blogging like I normally do, but come on really? I mean to just completely dislike me like that is so not cool. 

Anyways, I am going to be really honest with y'all tonight well by the time y'all read this it will be tomorrow. Any who, I am having a really bad day and I am going to let you in on a little secret, its about me. After reading Nicole's post today I feel I need to be transparent with y'all about this crazy life i'm living. I like Nicole have been a good little girl my whole life and I am feeling the effects of it more than ever this week. 

I had dinner with my bestie tonight, she is absolutely one of my best friends and I have known her literally my entire life and well she knows me well. Anyways, we haven't seen each other in forever because she is a school teacher and i'm a nurse and she's married and i'm terminally single. Well we finally made it tonight and I basically bared my soul to her and I haven't done that with anyone in forever! 

I like Nicole have made it a point to make everyone think that I am ok, well newsflash i'm not and I don't know what to do about it. I finally came clean to my bestie and she made me feel about the same really, I felt better for getting it out but I also didn't feel better. She is going through a lot also and neither one of us could fix any of it. Our lives are spiraling out of control and we can't fix it. Mine is terminal singleness and loneliness and her's is boring life and adult worries and a few others. 

I dont really know where i'm going with this post but I just needed to get it out there. I am not always alright and I am the girl who puts on the fake smile and tells everyone that I am ok. Well from now on I am going to work on it. I have run off my friends with this kind of acting and from now on I am going to be honest about how I am doing, but not too honest all the time. 

So I am so sorry about all my ramblings on, but this is my blog so I just had to put it out there how I am feeling and hopefully tomorrow when I go work a 12 hr shift I will feel better about life. Again sorry about the ramblings and if it doesn't make sense which i'm sure ti doesn't

Cold, Rainy Monday

Hello bloggy world!! Oh how I have missed you! So I was out of town for the weekend and missed reading everyones blogs and getting to write to all you fabulous ladies! So I was at my sisters last weekend visiting with her, my BIL, and niece and nephew for our Christmas time with them. We had a good time and I especially enjoyed spending time with my niece! She wouldn't let me out of her sight and followed me everywhere. We played all weekend and I showed her how to work the present we had gotten her for Christmas. She absolutely loved it! She is very artistic and loves anything to do with drawing and coloring, so we got her a glow in the dark drawing board with lights on it. My nephew loved his hot wheels cars and new race track he got. I was sad to leave my niece and she was sad for me to leave too, but I told her to call me to tell me what santa brought her for Christmas! 


On another note, I have been working out for a week and watching what I eat and I have lost (drum roll please) 2 pounds!! I am so excited! This definitely gives me the motivation I needed to go for my run today with the weather the way it is, bc all I wanna do right now is sleep, read, and watch movies (perfect day for all). But in lieu of having lost 2 pounds I am going to lug myself off the couch and put on my running shoes and hit the treadmill. 


So with that last thought I reckon I better get off of here and get to running (joy not), so wish me luck and I will keep everyone in the loop on my weight loss journey!


Ps. excited to link up with Megan again tomorrow for Sometimes/Always!